I suppose I can really only speak for myself, but I am almost certain the following does not relate only to me. I am sure a few of you will read ahead and say confidently, “yes, that’s me too.”
I talk, a lot. I say a lot of things, different things. It starts from the time I wake up until the moment I go to sleep. Sometimes I talk to others, sometimes it is just to myself. If you took everything I say over the course of the day, evaluated it, broke it down, and placed it on a graph, or even a pie chart, hands down the most common words out of my mouth are;
Sometimes it is sincere, other times sarcastic. I say it through tears, or in laughter. I say it when I mean it. I say it when I don’t. I say it when I really think you should be saying it to me instead. Sometimes I am angry when I say it, or other times I am embarrassed or sad.
For someone who talks a lot, isn’t it sad that the most common thing I say is that I am sorry? Especially when I only mean it some of the time.
And then Thanksgiving comes along. A day when we all feel the need to climb to the mountain tops and yell, status update, Instagram, or Tweet whatever or whoever it is that we are most Thankful for.
So what if we didn’t do this once a year. What if it was normal to not only be aware of what you are thankful for, but vocalize it as well? What if you didn’t only say “thank you” in moments of gratitude, but felt it, said it, across many emotions like my sometimes honest and sometimes not apologies.
Maybe if I said “thank you” more I wouldn’t have to say “I’m sorry” so much.
I am thankful for so many things. I promise I won’t bore you with the list here. To be honest, if I started now I don’t think I could stop, but I am going to start saying it more. Being aware of it more. I am going to stop being sorry so much. Especially when I am not.
I am hoping that the pie slice of “i’m sorry” is soon consumed by “thank you.” Maybe one day I will be known as the girl who is always so thankful, rather than the girl who is always sorry.
So after a long say at work I am pouring a glass of wine, missing the friends and family that I love, and reflecting on all of my blessings.
So, thank you to all, and to all a good night.